had dinner with a friend and how marvellous that she bought me a book for my wedding! the book isn't related to my wedding...its just a gift that outstretched itself. i'm sure glad she bought it because its a great book. a book that i enjoyed reading and relating to.

i feel the need to write this down. i am often depressed - like that of liz. but for a reason other than a divorce. i related deeply to the wholeness, control, and/or balance search and i plainly love her travel, some religious insite (not for her views/choice though), odd experiences; and i'm guessing, that the individual she found seems to be what i'm waiting for. i often don't know what i want because i like so many things? i'm happy most of the time but i don't really know why i'm happy anyway? ok, don't get confused though, its just bliss right. and there are those momentous days where you just feel awfully sad! its just inexplainable. i know i'm going through many things - and of those many things, i'm not sure which i'm ok with and which i'm not ok with. know what i mean? life just keeps chugging along... wake up, do what you have to do, and sleep. somewhere in between, you join things, hang out with people...bliss. before you know it - things passed you by.

i'm writing this because i'm getting married. sheesh.. i even get to go on a marriage counselling thing (its mandatory to get the license). its great though. learning lots of new things. and i totally agree on investing as much time preparing for wedding as the marriage (yup even before you are actually married). its true what most counsellors say , you'll even read it in self help books... religious or not... you gotta learn to love yourself. there it is again. exactly, what this girl, liz's story all about...learning to find herself and loving who she is.  so.. umm does anyone want to sponsor my trip to europe so i can go find myself and write a book?? i'll call the book: hate meditate escape? or ummm travel travel travel! hahahahah i'll have a better title once i finish travelling across europe, and of course, once i finish writing the book!

com'n please??